Each year I try to fully review who I am, who I have been, and who I would like to be. Each year I have a long list of things I would like to do/be/own in an effort to evolve and become the me I want to be in this one life that I get. This blog will solely be focused on that purpose, so herein you will find:
- things that i love
- things that i hate
- things that fall somewhere in between
I do have two other blogs- and while I go back and forth on whether or not this is excessive- right now I feel like I need/want to categorize (and even celebrate) the dimensions in my life. In fact, on my drive home work work yesterday, I was thinking about who I am, not just how I view myself, but also how I think others might describe me...a string of descriptors flipped through my mind like a slot machine. Mom? Wife? Friend? Carefree? Creative? Devil-May-Care? Intimidating? Professional Striver? I realized I couldn't land on just one yet...and then as I struggled with how that makes me feel I thought:
"Maybe"...here comes the epiphanous thought..."Maybe we are better for every dimension we layer on." Which reminds me of a line in one of my favorite Indigo Girls songs: "We're better off for all that we let in." Which reminds me of a night in Nikki's DUMBO bathroom last January (we spent hours in there, I was suffering, yes suffering, from a bladder infection) when Nikki abruptly asked me what tattoo I would get if I had to decide right then and there. I said this very lyric, only to hear her laugh and tell me that I had misunderstood her question in the first place- but thanks for the info.
Anyway- I realized I like the thought of layering and adding specific dimensions to my life...I like the thought so much that I thought about calling everyone I know to share it in case it might be as freeing to them as it was to me...then I realized that perhaps this is obvious and maybe not as epiphanous to others as it is to me... so instead I decided to introduce and explore Evolving Eloise.
So enough of that diatribe. Let's get going.
i just tried to post a comment, one to say that i am so glad i can finally read the words here. one to say that i am reading similar lines about accruing, layering, building up but not erasing or superceding, just adding and becoming in complexity. i'm looking forward to reading about you as you add in without summing up.
ReplyDeletewith admiration, excitement and well, yes, 'let's get going'...
xoxo